My World

I want to live in a world where everything is peach-colored and flawless and the trials we endure never hurt for too long. Once a lesson is learned, its learned - you'd never forget it. You'd never make the same mistake twice. Feelings wouldn't hurt because people are kind enough not to hurt others. Rumors don't spread because they never start and peers don't judge because of what you look like. Smiles would overpopulate the frowns - there would be no frowns. Shy girls and boys could tell their boyfriends and girlfriends they love them even if it scares them to death because everyone would be confident in themselves...even the shy souls. Children would respect their parents and parents would respect their children's space. Religion wouldn't tear people apart. Differences would be accepted. Being unique would no longer be frowned upon. Embarrassing moments would be uplifting and goofy laughs would be everyones favorite. I want to live in a world where happiness is everyones motto and smiles are more important than money. Oh, what a world I want to live in.

Conversation in the Kitchen

Thank you

Those words will never suffice nor truly show you the impact you made on my heart, soul and mind. Perhaps, unless you read these words and then my mind, you'll never know what the conversation in the kitchen did to me. For once, someone finally saw deeper than my skin and had a taste of what I've felt. I saw the sympathy in your eyes, heard it in your voice and felt it in your long embraces. I needed that, I needed you, more than I was ever aware. I'm a long way from perfect, but because of you I have the confidence to get there. (i hope and i pray every single night that i never lose you) You looked me over and you smiled, called me pretty and pulled me in, again. Maybe its cliche, being a girl and all, but that gesture sent me soaring and changed the girl I see in the mirror, now. Its possible you thought everything you said were merely words, but to me, they changed me. My confidence. My happiness. My motivation. My life. I owe the heart-transformation to you, dear. You perfect person, thank you.

Owl Eyes

I like to write, you know?

I especially really like to write poetry...or, my own little spin on poetry, I guess. I'm not sure what is technically considered real poetry.

Anyway, I think that my blog {this blog} should just be my life blog. You know, my blog about daily little things, or whatever else I may choose to write about. Whenever I post my 'poetry' I write, I feel like it disturbs the 'flow,' if you will, of this here blog.

Sooo, I've decided to start another blog. A ChelseaKate-Poetry blog. I think it'd be kind of cool if you'd read it or at least take a peek at it from time to time. I understand poetry isn't everyones cup of tea, but you know, I thought it'd be worth a try to get y'all to take a looksie!

The address is:

chelseakate-owleyes.blogspot.com

I hope you'll give it a chance. If not, its cool, we can still be friends (:

You're all grand.

Every Time

When I'm with you, I am happy. I like to be by your side.

 Every time I have the chance to speak to you, I wonder if you see the butterflies as they fly.

 There's something 'bout your magical eyes, your crooked smile and your strong arms. 

Your will to serve, your friendly voice, your listening ear, your genuine concern for who I am, my well being. 

I'm someone special in your presence, every time I'm there.

Your arms are where I find myself wishing I were.

Every day I long for the deep, beautiful conversations we lose ourselves in, each time we have one another.

You make me smile.

The passenger seat of your car...

Its too easy to recall how it feels sitting there watching you, so confident, handsome and nonchalant. 

I feel my heart wish for those bright lights.

I hear my breath as it leaves me because you, who you are, takes my breath away every time.

You make my heart beat out of control.

You make my smile emerge, no hope of concealing it.

Your touch makes me spin.

Your hugs make me believe in this shining moment.

Your voice gives me chills.

Your eyes melt my soul.

You, you make me fall more and more each day...

Every time.

Daddy

I want this one to be perfect.

For the one man who has always been there for me

The one who has never let me down, broke my heart or stopped my dreams.

My first true love.

My first taste of the good, good life.

My daddy.

To the man who gave me everything, I give you my heart.

To the man who always had a smile reserved just for me

Even when his day was one of the worst.

To the spiritual giant I've been blessed to admire each day.

To the hard-worker who taught through his actions.

To the silent scripture reader, ponderer and prayer.

To the hero who always chased away the bad guys

And put strength back in his b.o.j.'s heart.

To the believer who always had more faith in me than I did.

To the happy man who radiates optimism.

To the motivator who pushed me to chase my dreams

All of the dreams, no matter how far-fetched.

To the daddy who raised the bar

And set high expectations.

Thank you.

For teaching me right from wrong.

For giving me his testimony to start my own.

For catching me each time I fall.

For reminding me there is good in the world.

For proving to me I deserve nothing less than the best.

For being the one who started my love of activity.

For laughing with me when I need it the most.

For encouraging me to be the best, even if its hard.

For proving hard work pays off.

For keeping me humble, faithful and righteous.

For never letting me give up or sell myself short.

For having genuine concern about his daughters lives.

For loving me.

You're my hero, big guy.

You're the only man I need right now.

And when the other guy I need does comes around

Don't worry

You'll always be my first love, my first real love.

No one can take your place in my life, in my heart.

You know, I hope that guy is just like you.

Mom is one lucky woman.

Daddy, I love you

I always have, I always will.

You got me where I am and you'll be there where I go.

I'll never see why I'm so lucky

Just remember I am thankful for you even when I don't show it.

At the end of the day

My heart is happy because you're my daddy.

My buddy, my pal, my hero, my example.

And just as you'll always be mine

I'll always be yours.

Your little girl.

Your biggest fan.

Your boj.

My Angels

I will never understand it.

I can't comprehend it.

Why I've been so blessed in being given the two most incredible angels God has to give.

I've searched myself

And I've no idea what I've done to deserve this beauty.

Perhaps I'll never know why everything I've needed has been handed effortlessly to me

So in that case, my angels...

I thank you.

You two precious, perfect little girls will never know the impact you've made on my life.

I may be older than you both by several years

But you're the ones who are the shining examples.

The mature, loving, selfless, phenomenal beings.

How is it that you're mine?

The way you both look up to me...

Your sparkly brown and blue-green eyes eager to watch me

Encourages me, daily, to be a better person.

The person, the big sister, you motivate me to be.

Because of you sweet little girls, I strive for excellence.

I am who I am because I know you.

I'm becoming who I should because of you both.

I cannot imagine my life without you. Life would be nothing without you.

Since the magical days you were each brought to this earth

You've been there for me.

Your loving touches, your sweet smiles, your happy, uplifting words...

You're my rocks. My support. My cheerleaders.

My best friends.

Dears, I hope you know I'll never leave, never let you down.

Forever and always

I'm here for you.

Thats what big sisters are for, after all.

And it is my sincerest pleasure to be yours.

Life will come at you fast, sooner than you know.

Your heart will be tried, happiness tested and faith shaken.

Please never forget

When you're feeling low, lost or forgotten

You'll have me.

You will always have me, girls.

How lucky are the three of us to have each other and to love each other so much?

You two have created the real, true smile I wear on my face.

You're my angels.

I'll never understand it. I'll never know why I'm the luckiest one.

All I can say, my angels, is thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Savannah Klaire, Adeline Kayde, I love you my little angels.

Girl Under the Stars

As I lie under the stars I’m coming to realize just how small I am. Small, but worth something…because here I am, under the stars with a chance, a blessed opportunity, to live life to its fullest and make my mark and leave a legacy. Even if only the stars notice my impact. I am someone. I’ve burned my bridges and broken bonds with tremendous people, but I’ve mended my ways. I’ve fixed myself and seen the bright lights. Perhaps the people I long for the most will never see the change, but I saw it, I see it. The Lord sees it. Undoubtedly, the difficult days aren’t over with and I’ve still got a line of never ending trials in my future days but I’ve learned so much about myself. I have strength. I know I can rise up against the pain, conquer the sorrow and find happiness, peace and grow more in this eternal journey. These stars will forever give me hope. Its like after all this time of doubt and uncertainty I’ve found the respect and confidence in who I am inside and outside. I’m beautiful, strong, worth it and special – someone worth loving and taking care of. Chelsea. I’ll lie under the stars a while longer with these emotions trickling down my cheek. Tears of happiness, finally. Acceptance, relief and joy. I’ll thank the sky for always being there as it twinkles at me. I’ll shine here in the moonlight and feel my heart beat out of my chest. Its my time, now because I’m someone amazing. I’ll leave my mark. My legacy will be one of triumph and courage. Even if only the stars notice. I’ll lay here, thankful. Finally the girl I’ve always wanted to be, the girl I love. Me. Just me. The special girl under the stars. 

leather

you're all up in my business
and lets be honest, i don't want you anywhere else.

our sins are scattered on the floor
but we're back on this leather couch.

we don't care about that talk
because right now we are and this is perfect.

i'm trying to convince you with subtle actions
forever is still in the front of my mind.

i'll lay my head between your ribs
your steady heart beat as my lullaby.

your calloused hands sticking to my shirt
rubbing my body will send the butterflies wild.

as your head droops in slumber
i'll look at your peaceful face and whisper 'i love you' words.

i'll close my hopeful eyes, my hand on your strong chest
your sleep sounds help me in imagining what we could be.

when your sparkly eyes flutter open and your lips press on my face
my heart will sing our song for you.

i'll steal your breathe on my face
in exchange for my heart and soul.

tired bodies we'll rise from our peaceful place
dreading the walk to the cold front door.

i wish these goodbyes wouldn't last much longer
yet i look forward to being wrapped tightly in your firm grasp.

kisses goodbye and fond gestures later
i'll gaze at you through windows as you venture home.

until the last second i can see you
my eyes will be tied on where your spirit travels.

tell me you've arrived safely
i'll lose myself in a sweet dream about you, then.

you're all up in my business
and lets be honest, i don't want you anywhere else.

i'll see you, soon
back on our peaceful spot on the leather couch.

until that date
think of me like you did, tonight.

passenger seat

I'll take the passenger seat.
Gladly.
Don't mind my stares locked on your skin.
As your gaze looks nonchalantly over the steering wheel, I'll daydream in your sparkly eyes.
When you glance my way don't be surprised when I turn away with rosey cheeks.
Surely, I'll swoon when you grace me with your fairytale smile.
I could do this everyday, dear.
Sit in this leather seat and watch you navigate, effortlessly.
You're perfect, love.
Listening to your music and even better, your voice singing along.
I'll smile as you release the tunes you've memorized from your lips.
I could travel years and years with you.
When your hand finds mine my heart will race and you'll pretend you don't notice.
I'm not smooth enough to hide that emotion but you'll help me feel confident in that.
The view from this seat has never been so beautiful.
I wonder if you know just how captivated I am by your presence.
I wonder if you're really as perfect and spectacular as you let off.
To me, you're the very definition of everything I've ever needed and beyond that.
My mind travels to a place of our future and I wonder if you see it on my face.
In the meantime I'll wait for you to take your time.
As long as you're the driver..
I'll take the passenger seat.

I dreamt in cryptic passageways, only I could see

As dark and cold as it became I felt warmth in my palms.

Visions of all sorts of emotion towered over me

Your breath fell on my fingertips, singing bleeding songs.

Seconds later the room lit to pale lace

Your sparkly eyes caught hold of mine.

Confidence and patience written on your face

Your words, "one day at a time."

Suppose for just several seconds I forgot the sound

My guard fell down, my heart collapsed

And no one was around.

Again, the image of your hand grazes mine

Your voice loud in my head.

"I'm coming back for you, I meant what I said."

its a fake summer.

full of chaos and wonderland.

the birds don't whistle away the hole

but the deer remind me of you.

sometimes...nights are hard

and mornings are lonely

afternoons are too simple

and evenings leave me slightly empty.

but what's this compared to years on end?

so i remind myself i can make it.

it just feels right to complain.

like its my teenage duty, or something.

love you.